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[03 Mar 2008|01:43pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

haha I just read my entries from like junior/senior year in high school and god was I depressing lol. Looking back my life was pretty damn good and easy for that matter. I know I never write in this thing, mostly because I forget I even have it. 

Quick overview-  

I had an amazing summer job, which turned into a job offer when I graduate :) I was really happy about it

Ben is still awesome....and he makes me smile more than anybody ever has

I'm actually graduating next year and it's so weird...this is my last summer off EVER....weirdd

I joined a sorority and it's prob the best thing I've ever done

Reconnected with some old friends <3



Thats pretty much it.....well I guess I'll see you in another 6 months or something lol

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Just a little something something [28 Dec 2007|03:20pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

 You will know that
 forgiveness has begun when 
you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to 
wish them well.

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wow [28 Nov 2006|01:33pm]
[ mood | excited ]

So its been FOREVER. this isn't going to be a long update, I mean life is good ben is still amazing I can't wait to marry him!!!! Let's see what else My roommates this year are wonderful we get along great and school's good.

Lets see what else, My friends are awesome, my family and I are getting along better...and um yea life is good and I couldn't ask for more...


Peace out :)

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wow I cant believe it's been this long... [23 Mar 2006|03:43pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

why hello my lovelies!!! I can't believe I how long its been. Well a lot has happened but I'm not writing a long entry so deal with it :). Life is good, a little stressful, things with Ben are incredible, he is by far the best thing in my life. I can't wait to marry him hehe. the weather is getting nice so I'm in my glory. School is stressing me out, I have 3 papers due next week and two exams like ahhhh and one of my professors lost my paper, and my comp crashed so I.T. put a new hard drive in so I dont have a copy of it either which translate into me rewriting a paper that took my about 3/4 hours to write...sweet I know! lol I only have 6 weeks left though which is nice. I had spring break the last two weeks and worked my ass off at TJ Maxx. I'm lucky they hired me back. I found the car I want to get next year. Well I've found a couple it's between a chevy malibu, corolla, honda accord, or pontiac G6 so who knows. I'm excited tho well except for the payments I'm going to have but o well. Charlie and Sammy are getting along now and its adorable. I'm getting either my tongue or lip pierced in about a week. I havent decided which one I want yet so we shall see. Well thats all you people need to know....but I must say my life is amazing...absolutely amazing :)

Yours truely <33

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its been awhile [10 Feb 2006|06:22pm]
[ mood | silly ]

hey,
Sorry its been so long!!! Life has been going pretty good I dont really have much to write so I'll make it a quickie. Things with ben are amazing as usual. My grades are good, schools good, my friends are awesome, charlie and sammy are getting along, and I now have hair extensions. Yea so pretty much life couldn't get any better. Tonight ben's coming up and we are getting all shitty so yea its gunna be a good time all around. Well I've got better things to do then sit here and type. Peace out my darlings :)

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I got a puppy!!! [05 Jan 2006|11:28pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Well things have been okay. I'm kind of stressed because I got a new dog so I've been exausted its like having a baby! Things with ben are good but I feel bad I've been kind of a bitch lately. I don't mean to snap it's just when I get stressed I tend to take it out on the people I'm closest with which isn't an excuse but I'm going to honestly try and stop doing that. I love him more than anything it's really scary actually, but scary in a good way. :) Well nothing exciting has really happened, Tomorrow I'm doing my cousins' hair for their semi then saturday I'm doing Maria's hair for a dance she's going to. I can't believe I go back to school in just a little over a week. It's so weird. Well here's some pictures of my gorgeous new dog charlie and my amazing dog sammy :) Lovezz

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Happy new year [02 Jan 2006|09:15am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

hey!
Sorry It's been so long. I've been busy. Well lets see School is great and I got my grades and I did awesome so I'm pretty excited. I got everything I wanted for christmas so that was also good. I went to Ben's uncle's on christmas eve which was fun then christmas day we went to my aunt tessy's then to ben's uncle tim's, I'm glad that my family likes him and his family likes me. My new years eve was nice and relaxing with ben then yesterday we had an awesome time with my family. lol ben had to sing in front of everyone but he was a good sport about it. It was an awesome day. The hay ride was my favorite and we got roadie shots lol. That was hilarious. I'm kind of hurting today a little but o well it was well worth it. I might be getting a puppy and I'm sooo excited. I dont really feel like updating that much so I'm going to leave you with that. Hope everyone else's New years was good :)

Love,
Steph

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I've got a crack nail!!! [17 Nov 2005|11:11pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Hey,
Again I apologize for the long time span between updates life is just really hectic. Classes are going good I'm a little worried about one of them but other than that I am really close to making dean's list. The social aspect is awesome everyone here is crazzzy. Halloween weekend here was so fun omg. I will definately leave you with some pictures of our hot costumes and some other randomness. I'm just having fun and I love it hehe I went home last weekend but I'm staying here this weekend and guess what!!! I'm going to be 18 in 25 hours :) Fucking yes. I'm excited and my parents are so sweet they sent pizza, wings, soda and a cake. It was really thoughtful :). It's weird spending a birthday away from home I'm not going to lie but o well. I was supposed to go into boston tomorrow to go see harry potter with chantel and katie but I have no money so im skipping it, chantel cant go either because she promised her B.f. she would wait to see it with him so we r gunna stay here and do who knows what. I registered for my classes today for next semester and I got all the classes I wanted so I'm excited. I'm taking sociology-social problems, philosophy-reasoning and religion, Eng102-writing II, Human geography, and us constitution history to 1865. I hope all the classes are good :) One of them I actually have with chantel so that will be nice. Plus we can share a book. So I've decided I'm going to get a job out here, hopefully because I really need the money I'm going to apply at blockbuster, pub 99 etc...plus now that I'm 18 hopefully I can be a waitress. So who knows...

Ben came up and stayed over last night and I was so happy. I never realize just HOW much I miss him until I see him and then he leaves. He is one of the best things that has ever happened to me honestly. When I'm with him nothing else matters and even if I'm having the worst day in the world talking to him just helps. I am so lucky to have him in my life, I hope he knows that. *ben I know your going through some tough stuff but I love you and I'll ALWAYS be here for you* I can't imagine my life without him in it.

Well I know that was a short entry but Life's too short to spend all your time on here so peace out :)


Love,
Steph


*In a world where things come and go, I'll always have you to hold...and that ALL I need to know*



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nothing has changed....and I'm thrilled [25 Oct 2005|12:41am]
[ mood | mischievous ]

hey!
Sorry it's taken me so long to write an update...I've been extremely busy. Life is awesome I absolutely love it here I'm not gunna go into great detail cuz i'm tired but i've met a ton of amazing people and so far have had some frigin awesome times :) I've learned the new game of spoons haha i love it. Matt, joe and scott came up last thursday which was fun. Me and ben are still awesome, he's amazing I'm goin to marry him I just know it. When I'm with him nothing else matters, nothing is bad and i just feel awesome. I am proud to announce that my current GPA is.......drum roll please......3.25 what now!!!!! I'm so excited, I'm shooting to make deans list which is a 3.33 so hopefully i'll get it.

Let's see what has happened, I went out a couple thursdays ago and ended up at some random kids house (dont worry I was not alone i went with vanessa and amanda). Then it poured on the way back. I've gone home the last couple weekends to see ben and to see my mem who had surgery and my gma cuz I havent seen her in awhile. This past weekend I did maria's hair and makeup for the sadies...she looked gorgeous, and she looked so old. Let's see the weekend before that me and Ben went to go see The Fog...which I'm not gunna lie had the worst ending in the world.

Do you wanna know what the best feeling in the world is? Waking up next to ben. Like honestly when I sleep at his house or he sleeps at mine i just love knowing hes right there next to me. I can't wait to be able to move in together and then get married. I also love how we can talk about anything and not get weirded out. He's just amazing....I could gush about him for hours... :) O yea and he bought webcams so we will be able to video chat while I'm at school...I'm so excited about that. I think he might come up saturday night to visit and I hope he does.

Well I need to get some sleep...o yea and I'm gunna be 18 in 24 days....Isn't that awesome hehehe I have a ton of things planned already :)

Love,
Steph

*The hardest thing is loving someone and letting them love you back*

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Whatever You do I'll be right here waiting for you [05 Oct 2005|03:01am]
[ mood | restless ]

Hey,

Sorry It's been so long, I've been really busy. I'm not going to write much cuz I'm tired but here's another quickie:

I love school still, I decided I'm going to try and make dean's list so I need a 3.3 this semester. My parents will be so proud if I do it. So far im doing really good I have A-'s in almost all my classes :). I miss ben a ton as usual, he is one of the best things that has ever happened in my life. I love the people up here, I went home last weekend and saw my mem and pep and spent a ton of time with ben, then this past weekend I stayed here and went out saturday night which was awesome; Vanessa, kayla, kim and I went down to the white house and it was a ton of fun. then I wrote ben a dirty drunken text message ;) hehe. Sunday ben came for a few hours to hang out. It was just me and chantel this weekend too, we had a ton of fun. Friday we had a movie night with Katie Maye and brittany. O yea and on saturday I dyed my hair dark brown again cuz It was turning really really red.Last week nothing really exciting happened, Alex, Vanessa, and I had a sleep over in the lounge on our floor which was fun, we just grabbed all our blankets and slept in that room. Nothing really exciting happened other than that this week, that I can think of anyway haha. Let's see what else has happened. I've been going to the gym lately which is fun I've been going with this girl sarah who kicks ass hehe. I'm so glad I went away for school and as corny and cliche as it sounds im really figuring out who I am, and who I want to be, it's a good experience, and I'm lucky enough to have people who unconditionally love me. I was thinking the other day and I realized that I want to spend the rest of my life with ben, yea it's early in life and I'm only 17 but I want to wake up next to him each and every morning, obviously I wouldnt want get married right now, but I mean if I was older I'd marry him in a heartbeat. I love him with all my heart. I'm not going to lie, the nights are the worst, I'm fine during the day with missing ben cuz I try and keep busy but at night when I'm laying in bed I just wish he was there, so I cuddle with my body pillow but it just isn't the same a pillow doesnt hug back haha. I'm a lot closer with my mom now that I'm living away too, I talk to her a lot about EVERYTHING. It's really nice. I'm going home for columbus day weekend which im excited about, 3 whole days with the fam and ben :) I also miss tony a ton, i hate not being around for his sports and stuff, I hope he knows I miss him, lol he's gunna come visit me soon I hope and I'ma show him "the college experience" haha. well It's late and I need some sleep Hope you enjoyed my little update. (sorry I was jumping around all over the place)

Love,
Me


*I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance*

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Here's a quickie [18 Sep 2005|08:24pm]
[ mood | creative ]

hey!
Well college is really good so far. I was really nervous and at first it was lonely but then i started meeting new people and I really like it. I miss Ben a ton but we are working through it. He means the world the me, he is pretty much the best thing that has ever happened to me. My classes are good, I ended up dropping my music class so now im only taking 4 classes which actually works out better. My roommates are good and I def lucked out with that. Me and Amanda have been doing laundry lately...yes I know me doing laundry a scary thought :) I got a B on my first exam which rocks considering how I only got 2 hours of sleep the night before because the fire alarm went off at 2 AM and they didn't let us back into the dorm until 4 and I have an exam at 9 so I was a little stressed out. I've been playing poker lately and I came in second one night which was awesome. I've met a ton of awesome people. I think thats basically all I want to write about, I mean a ton more happened but I'm too tired to write. O yea and I surprised ben last weekend by coming home a day early, it was awesome he came home from work and I came running down the stairs and gave him a huge hug. Then this weekend he came and stayed up here with me. I'm the happiest I've ever been when I'm with him. We might go away for a weekend in January up to New Hampshire which I think will be awesome. The next weekend I think im going home, i dunno yet. I miss sammy and my family and stuff. okay I'm really done now.

Love,
Steph



*I'm teachin' myself to dream I'm learnin' what love can be*

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so tonight is the last night I sleep in my own bed [03 Sep 2005|11:45pm]
[ mood | excited/nervous ]

so as you guessed by the title, I'm leaving for school tomorrow, sorry i havent updated in a long time, me and ben had our 6 month anniversary and it was great. I love being with him, I'm going to miss him so much but we are going to try and make it work. well lets see what else, theres been a ton but im tired and I have too much other stuff on my mind to think about what I want to write about so this is going to be short. My parents made me a video of all pictures of me and my fam which was awesome and it made me cry lol. It made practically all my aunts cry too. Dave said he wants to come visit me which i thought was cool :) I'm going miss my family more then I expected. I just can't believe its really here i'm in college living on my own, its scary. n e who

I'm nervous and scared and all excited to move in so hopefully everything will go well. Today I went to my aunt rachels to see everyone before I left. I'm def going to miss everyone and hell i'm only going an hour away and I'm nervous im going to forget something o god this is stressful. exciting but stressful. Well I think thats going to be all a ton of other stuff has happened but im too tired to write about it, maybe i will one night when Im at school and cant sleep. well goodnight and wish me luck

Love,
Steph



*I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway*

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Time here is getting shorter... [17 Aug 2005|01:02am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

hey,

Well lets see life is going good. I've talked to my roommates a little bit more and they both seem really nice so I'm not as nervous as I was. Thursday is Me and Ben's six month anniversary which is awesome. Let's see i don't really remember what has happened the past week. I worked quite a bit, had that biopsy which turned out to be nothing so I was relieved. I went to the movies with ben and saw the skeleton key which was pretty good. I guessed the ending tho I'm just that awesome, then I slept at Ben's house which I absolutelty love doing, I just love cuddling with him at night and the best feeling is waking up next to him in the morning. O man I love him so much. I ordered my books yesterday. I also went to Danielle's for a bit which was exactly what I needed I miss her so much. We drank and talked about guys, sex, family stuff lol it was awesome. I'm going to miss her so much this year when I'm gone. I'm also going to miss ben. He means everything to me. It's crazy I have never felt this way about anyone and it's a little scary but amazing at the same time. I'm leaving for school soon and I cant wait, I'm excited to move out on my own and just be me. The next couple days I'm working and getting the stereo worked on in my car. Unfortunately I hahve to work on our 6 month anniversary and then saturday night I think me and ben are going out to dinner which is awesome. let's see what else is there.....I dyed my hair purpley red i dunno if I wrote that already a few days ago but whatever. I don't have much time left before I leave I have to get all my stuff together and go shopping for some jeans. Tony went to the Czech Republic and they placed 4th out of 12 teams so we were all pretty excited. He brought me back a shirt and some austrian crystal it was so sweet of him to think of us haha. I gotta say I missed him while he was gone, I had no one to talk to all day it was quite boring. I'm going to miss him when I leave but he's going to come visit me :). I think thats about everything sorry this entry was so short....

Love,
Steph



*I'll be that perfect someone*

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my apology [08 Aug 2005|01:19am]
[ mood | Better than yesterday ]

hey,
just wanted to apologize about the last entry I was a little upset if you didn't notice, I mean yea I think those things a lot but then again tonight was amazing with ben. we talked about stuff (not about the entry I dont even think he read it yet) but like about everyting, he makes me really happy. and I dyed my hair purpley red and I like it. I'm getting mixed feelings on it from people lol. You can obvisouly see why I made that post friends only I mean its not something I want to broadcast to everyone, I mean that entry was just a straight venting...and I'm sorry you had to see that side of me. Well I'm exausted because I didnt sleep last night so thats all I guess.



*I never really wanted you to see the screwed up side of me that I keep locked away inside me*

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I'm back [03 Aug 2005|11:31pm]
[ mood | excited ]

well I'm back....

the cape was amazing I did not want to come home. I got my roommate, I mean roommates which I was a little bummed about at first but I've talked to both of them and they both seem great so I'm even more excited then I was before. But I'll get back to that after....back to the cape

It was a little windy a couple of the days there but it was still fun. We went to the beach a couple times and stayed for 2 nights with the Reis's which was extremely interesting. There were 11 of us and we played hide and seek and had a nice game of poker. Kyle invented beach basketball which was fun we had a couple tournaments which of course were just for fun lol. Ben realized how competitive my family is it was funny. Kyle and Tony had a competition who could stand on the hot sand the longest, yea we're crazy but you love us. We played wiffle ball as well as we always do and of course my team won. hahaha we went by the bay a couple days and we went shopping, and saw wedding crashers. We played mini golf and ben kicked all of our asses.It was so much fun. Johnny D was there too and it was so nice to see him, hes going to be a hairdresser and he cut our hair and gave me a deep conditioning treatment for my hair because it got dried out from the bleach that was put in it. Johnny D is going to sign for me to get my tongue pierced as soon as I go to school, I'm going to take the T into Boston and meet him there so he can take me. It was really good to see him again, I've missed him a ton. I can't really think of n e thing else I hate when that happens, whenever I try to update I forget half the stuff that has happened....um Me and ben took walks at night along the beach which was awesome. Unfortunetly we had to come home on saturday which was a bummer but o well you can only be on vaca for so long right? haha

I really do love Ben, Its scary actually I've never felt this way about anyone I mean perfect example today I left the Dr.'s and I called Ben before I called my own mother to tell him how it went. I love caring this much about another person. Our 6 month anniversary is the 18 and i'm excited I don't know what to get him though, I want to get him something he was really like and something that is special ya kno? I know it sounds corny but I dunno. Maybe I'll make him a collage telling him how much I love him and write stuff about marriage on it hahaha JKJK (inside joke). I dunno I'm sure I'll think of something. I'm just so happy with Ben o man I love it. Next year is going to be tough but I think we will be able to get through it. I don't mean to get weird or n e thing but he is prob one of the only reasons I stayed around here this summer, I was going to go live at the cape after me and meg stopped talking to just get away from it all but Im glad I didn't. and I'm so glad he's in my life he's helped me through a ton I don't know where I'd be right now, plus I don't party as much, I mean not like I was obsessed with it or anything but I like not getting drunk and high a lot, I dunno it's hard to explain. I just love him and I'm so happy he's in my life because at this point I can't picture my life without him in it and thats scary....okay I'm done I don't want to scare him away ;)

I went out to eat with Ben and his mom last night and had mini day surgery today, dont worry it isn't anything serious I wouldn't even technically call it surgery I just had a piece of my cervix biopsied, hopefully everything turns out okay, she said it probably isn't anything so who knows. I haven't worked in two weeks and I love it. Um what else....I have to go before a judge on friday to contest a ticket I got so hopefully that goes good. then my mom is having a cookout for tony's team, he leaves sunday for the Chezk republic im so excited for him, the uniforms are really nice and I hope he has fun.

I'm dying my hair on saturday its going to be red I'm sick of the blonde, it doesn't really fit my personality, im more of a dark haired person. I saw Tim Guerrin today when I was driving and this kid Jon who is friends with Brandie's boyfriend Dan was behind me and yelled my name but I felt bad because I was talking to Tim at the red light o well whatever he'll get over it. I think he was with his girlfriend but who knows. n e who I think thats mostly everything, If I remember something else I'll be sure to update again.

O geeze I almost forgot about my roommates. Their names are Chantel (she's from vermont and plays field hockey which is awesome) and Amanda from MA I haven't talked to her as much yet she wrote me a letter and when I called she wasn't home but from her letter she seems like a really nice girl. They both do, I think things are going to work out okay in the triple for a little while. well im tired goodnight

Love,
~Stephanie~


*When I said "I love you" well, that's what I meant
And I plan to show you if it takes me the rest of my life*

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another sleepless night [21 Jul 2005|04:07am]
[ mood | excited ]

hey!

Sorry about the last entry it was a little depressing and again if i hurt someone's feelings im sorry i just had to let it out and if i put it as friends only it would not have mattered because u are one of my friends....

n e who...

Today was an awesome day...I got my package in the mail which i had shipped to ben's house so his dad called me today to tell me which made me happy. THEN i went by the pool with sammy and hung out for a bit. I went to work at 3 and stayed until 10 we only have like 8 people on which isn't a lot at all. there are 4 sections of the store and we only had 3 people to cover them and we usually have 5 or 6. but we pulled it together cuz we kick ass. lol. I've worked everyday since last thursday and tomorrow i finally have a day off wooo whoo. then im working friday night and saturday 1-6. After work on saturday im hanging out with erin for a bit and my rents r leaving for the cape. I'm staying behind with tony because he has hockey practice at 2 and then tony, ben and I are leaving around 3 after his practice. I can't wait for ben to come home I miss him like crazy. He's coming home in about 30 hours lol. Im so excited. Things are actually going really well now.

I got over my depressed day lol hey everyone has one of those every now and then. I got all my stuff for my dorm room and I can't wait to move in. I should get my roommate soon...did i already write about this stuff last entry? o well i forgot if i did haha. I hope I dont get my roommate letter while im gone to the cape because what if my roommate tries to call and leaves a message and then thinks i blew her off cuz i didnt call back cuz i was on vaca? i dunno id feel bad haha. I'm waiting for the sun to come up so I can go for a run. I've decided Im going to go for a run everyday starting tomorrow morning, i miss when i used to run all the time (wow did i really just say that?) lol I have to pack for the cape tomorrow ugh I feel so overwelmed haha.

My brother is going to the Chezk republic when we come back from the cape to play hockey for a week and im so excited for him. I wish I was half as talented as him at n e thing lol. He's good at everything he does its crazy. Sometimes I get jealous but then again who wouldn't so whatever it's normal. I bought a shirt that everything going to the Chezk signed and Im going to frame it and then put his plane tickets in it and give it to him as a gift when he comes back.

I wanna go to hampton beach sometime soon, maybe even for the weekend? lol i dunno i just love hampton i had such a good time last year when i went with my fam and then I ended up running into joe, bill, tim, pat, chris and dennis o man it was a good time :) n e who I just wanna go there for the day even.

Well I have nothing else to write about so I guess thats all....

Lovez
*Stephanie*



...Things are often said to
Doubt what I feel for you
But words that people say
Won't take my love away...

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so I can't sleep again [19 Jul 2005|04:55am]
[ mood | crappy ]

I cant sleep because I have a lot on my mind. Im afraid if I say some of it I'm going to hurt someone though, even though I need to get it out. I don't know anymore. Today was a horrible day....Ben's at the cape and I miss him a ton, my mom is being a bitch and i have to work EVERYDAY this week. I don't know what I'm goin to do about next year. I'm going to miss ben so much, and I have so many people telling me different things that I don't know who to believe. I never meant for this to happen.... I mean I love ben a lot, he means the world to me. I just don't want to hurt him...what if I screw up? I've never been this happy in my life and it's scary. Even though I'm happy I'm stressed and I randomly get upset over nothing and I dont know how to explain it to ben when I'm with him and suddenly I'm just upset, I've recently relapsed into a bad habbit I had awhile ago, I just don't know any more I don't feel like myself. I have to have a mini day surgery in august which Im a nervous wreck about, It's nothing serious but I'm still scared. I've realized lately that I miss my old friends, dont get my wrong I love the friends I have here but I've been talking to my old friends lately and part of my wishing I walked across the stage with them at TMHS. I dunno it's just something I've been kind of upset about lately. I'm not going to say anything more about those situations...

I'll tell you about the last couple days. I worked alot and saw ben I hung out with erin on monday and have been sitting out by the pool alot. I need to get a tan. This week I'm also working a ton...I worked sat, sun, mon, and im working tues, wed, fiday, and saturday. Then sunday Im leaving for the cape thank god and ben is coming with me for the week so I'm pretty excited about that. I still haven't gotten the letter saying who my roommate is yet, hopefully that will come soon. I went shopping for stuff for my dorm room and got a ton of stuff, its all teal and purple which totally fits my personality. Thursday hopefully I'm hanging out with erin when she comes back from maine so im excited about that as well. well im really going to try to get some sleep because I have to get up at around 9...so hopefully I can sleep since I got some stuff out....and I'm sorry if I hurt you with anything I said....

Love,
*Stephanie*

~*I am Selfish I am wrong*~

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yea so i cant sleep [08 Jul 2005|03:51am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

It's about 4 in the morning and I am wide awake and it sucks!! ugh its such a bummer, o well i figured id update considering how I usually only do it ya know like once a month.

Not much is new from the last time I wrote, My schedule next week for work is crazy im working sunday, monday, wednesday, thursday and all day saturday but im glad cuz i need the money. I got my hair done last night and I absolutely love it, Kate is def my hairdresser now I dont even want to go to someone else. She put more blonde highlights and then redid my roots so the blonde i already had is blonder and she cut it for me. Im gunna keep it blonde for the summer I think and then prob dye it black again for the winter. I like dark hair for the winter I think it looks really classy. But I also love my hair blonde, i dunno im just ramblin. O and thanx amanda for your input on my hair, i might actually have some red put in but im not sure cuz i like just the blonde too lol choices choices. well I dont know what else to write about I mean tonight ben is taking me out to Vinny T's so im pretty excited, then I gotta work tomorrow 9-2 which is ehh and then ben leaves for the cape next saturday I think and o boy am I gunna miss him :( But its okay because then Im going up to the cape and hes gunna stay with me for the week so that should be pretty fun. I cant wait to go to the beach. I have barely spent n e time out in the sun this summer and I dont know why, last summer thats like all I did was go outside and this year it doesnt interest me as much.

I kno I keep writing about how happy I am but i cant get over it, I dont think ive EVER been this happy, my friends are amazing and ben is just wonderful and im so excited for next year, I'm supposed to find out my roommate soon. I hope I dont get stuck in a triple cuz that would suck so bad. Im going to have a hard enough time adjusting to sharing a room with one person never mind two people. But hopefully I wont have to worry about it. N e wayz as it gets closer and closer Im getting a little bit nervous but not that I wont make friends because I know i will (I dont mean to sound conceited) but Im more worried about not succeeding in my classes. In order to get my teaching license I need to have a 2.8 GPA all four years and im scared that I wont be able to do that. so i dunno like I know i can do its just a matter of will I. I want to but what if I cant manage my time or I start to party too much. Its just stuff i've been thinking about lately. Im going shopping with my mom on thursday to get stuff for my dorm room then my aunt rachel wants to take me shopoing for some stuff which is awesome because I love shoppin with her plus I can talk to her about everything. I just love how i can tell her things and know she wont say anything.

For me not knowing what to write about I sure did have a lot to say haha well im going to really try and get some sleep atleast before the sun comes up. :)

Love,
*Steph*


.*.The stolen kisses are always the sweetest.*.

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so happy I can't even begin to tell you... [05 Jul 2005|01:25am]
[ mood | dorky ]

hey!!

Well I am so happy right now I can't even begin to tell you. The past couple days I have spent everyday with Ben for atleast a couple hours anywayz. It's hard because our work schedules conflict, he works 8-5 and I usually work 5-10 so we hang out for a little bit after I get outa work but not too long cuz then he'll be tired lol. Needless to say this weekend we hung out a lot to catch up. Friday night I worked then went to the fireworks with ben then saturday I slept until like 2 I was exausted then ben came over for a bit. Sunday I worked 11-3 and I woke up extremely late and was almost very late for work lol that would of been bad. So then I was supposed to go to my aunt linda's but I was tired and didnt feel like driving an hour to get there so ben came over for a bit. Then slept over. This morning was the best ever....he told me he loved me today and o man im so happy. Not just because he told me he loved but with everything in my life. Its just awesome right now. Let's see what else is there....today I worked from 2-6:30ish and then me and ben drove out to mich and mike's house on the lake and we had a cookout with the triplets, sharon, ben, mike, mich, cass's b.f dan even tho cass wasnt there lol, kyle and his gf jodi was there and then my family. It was a lot of fun. We went in the lake and tried tipping the dock and one of my rings fell off so i was really bummed. Luckily it wasnt n e of my rings that had stones in it, it was my gold thumb ring but now i gotta wait three weeks until i go to the cape so i can buy a new one. bummer huh? Thier new house is going to be gorgeous, just the frame is up and it already looks awesome. lol yea. Let's see what else is there? I'm getting my hair done again on wednesday, I'm debating about whether or not I should put red in it, cuz im putting more blonde in but i might do red too i just dont know lol. n e input is welcome. Thursday I have to work and then friday night ben is taking me out to dinner which I think is super sweet, I think thats all for now I'm tired I need some sleep....goodnight :)


Lovez
.*.Stephanie.*.




~*It's amazing how someone can make you feel*~

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grow up [01 Jul 2005|12:06am]
[ mood | aggravated ]

ok this entry is just so i can vent and at this point I dont give a rats ass as to who I offend...


So tonight was a really good night i went with mich and mike and allie, kyle, uncle dennis, mom, ben and aunt rachel to go see mich and mike's new house....then I come home and go with my mom to pick up my bro who was at the pierce's house playing poker so meaghan was walking outside and looked right at me and couldn't even be decent and say hi no shes so immature that she just looked the other way. now im not sad about this by n e means i just think it's ridiculous that she can't be mature enough to smile and say hi and thats that. whatever i think it's pathetic and im sure brandie is going to read this and run and tell meaghan that i wrote about her but guess what you both can kiss my ass i dont care. i just think its dumb that you can't be mature and just be like hi or smile grow up and act your age your fucken 18 yrs old. jesus christ.

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